Am I doing well or am I just surviving?
Some days I feel like I’m growing. Like wow, I’m really becoming her.
Other days? I feel like I’m just floating through life. Doing the bare minimum. Smiling on cue. Replying “I’m fine” when I’m really… tired. Like soul tired.
And nobody really knows, because I still post cute stuff, I still show up, I still talk about goals. But deep down, I don’t know if I’m doing well or I’m just surviving because I have no choice.
It’s weird being the person people think is doing okay. Sometimes I want to scream, “Bro I’m just winging it. Every single day.”
But instead, I’ll just type this.
And post it.
And maybe someone else will see it and whisper, “I swear.”
XOXO
Drey
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I feel this more than I can put into words. It’s like living in two realities at once one where you’re growing and glowing, and another where you’re barely holding it together behind the scenes. The weight of being “okay” for everyone else while you’re internally unraveling is so real.
But you’re not alone. There’s strength in showing up, even when you’re tired. And there's so much honesty and power in what you just shared.
So yeah I swear
You’re not alone, chisomaga. So many of us are floating while pretending we’re flying. Thanks for putting this into words.
Most times I feel like am not moving at all
This felt like someone opened a window to my own soul. Some days I feel powerful, like I’m becoming the Person I always dreamed of. Other days, I’m just surviving on autopilot, smiling because it’s expected, not because it’s real. The most exhausting part? Looking ‘okay’ while quietly unraveling. Thank you for giving voice to what so many of us carry in silence